The holidays are bittersweet this year. It is definitely not the same without Mama. I feel selfish because I am wanting them to hurry and get over with, but I know it's not fair to take the traditions from my son so I am trying to be strong and give him a wonderful Christmas. I feel like breaking down and giving up everyday, but then I look at my son and hear him tell me what Santa is bringing him or see him light up when he looks at the tree and for a moment he brings me joy.
God has blessed my family in so many ways and we have so much to be thankful for and I know my Mother would want us to reflect on that and not on sadness. But sometimes it is just hard not to. She enjoyed this time of year so much. She brought so much happiness to us with her smile and just the brightness around her. She enjoyed giving, and would be going crazy buying for Connor and Klarah. I am just thankful for all the wonderful Christmas memories we have and the traditions she has instored in us to pass on to our children.
